Courage

The courage to hold your head up high and be proud of who you are.

to stand firm on your decisions

to believe in yourself

to move on

to forgive others

to smile and be thankful even when you're sad

to thank someone with a truthful heart

to never truly hate someone

to believe you've done your best

to do things that you should do and not to do things you shouldn't do

to admit your wrongs

and to redeem yourself.

oh how i wish i had that courage.

how i wish I could be that strong

so no one can push me down

especially myself.

sometimes I get really embarassed, humiliated and disappointed of myself.

because I never take that first step: to BELIEVE.

even though I keep saying it.

I guess I'm a hypocrite after all.

I'm sorry that I'm a hypocrite.

I wish one day I would be able to gain that courage.

to protect myself and the ones I love

to cherish them with all I've got.

coz now, emotionally, spiritually and mentally speaking,

I've got nothing. and I'm weak.

I know that.

That's probably why I'm whining all the time.

Sigh. God.. please grant me the courage.

I'm so weak that I feel like even typing is difficult.

I need strength. I need Your help..