Poster for first chapter of my story.. AND the 2nd.. AND the 8th. tee hee.(forget it its just a big spam for my story posters LMAO coz i need the urls for putting it up on my story so... yeah)

Its kinda plain and boring but its my first time nevertheless ._.

http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/72186/angel-and-devil-of-love-kimbum-minho-minyoung-sandarapark

Check it out please~ Kamsahamnida~

Comment too, or subscribe :D

They're all loved!

Okay.

Now back to studying.. >3>

Some Things Can Never Be Undone

Some of the things I've done that really hurt other people.

I really wanna just take those back.

I feel like the bad guy sometimes.

I know I'll never be forgiven.

But I just want you to know I'm sorry.

If I'd suddenly PMS-ed on you one day out of the blue.

If I'd ignored you suddenly and not talk to you for the entire day. Week. Or sometimes even a month. (yes that's how long I can hold a grudge for)

If I'd done some mean things to you like outrightly telling you that you're a b!tch or whatnot.

Telling you to say sorry when it was not entirely your fault.

FOR BEING AN ATTENTION WHORE. AND A B!ITCH. AND A LOSER.

I'M SO SORRY.

You probably know who I'm talking about.

If you don't then maybe you'd like to take this as a message to yourself too.

If I'd done anything to you, I now sincerely apologize.

My childish ways.

I promise to never let them run so freely anymore.

I hate that part of me.

I hope you see my sincerity.

I hope that if you'll not forgive me, then please understand how sorry I am.

I know things between us will never go back to the way they were.

When you trusted me more than you trusted God Himself.

I feel regret every time.

I thank you too, because now you've taught me a lesson.

It took me a whole freaking year to finally accept that it was also my fault for this rift that separates us.

I learn to be humble and always blame myself first, not anyone else. Not even anyTHING else.

Thank you. And above all else,

Sorry.

I Need You

Yup. YOU.

I need the blessings D:

I really can't concentrate on studying and the test is on next monday!

Please wish me luck or give me your blessings.

I REALLY REALLY need them.

Thanks :3

Over You

I've got to be independent now. Imma big gurl X)

I can't afford to go astray like this anymore.

Its time I gave up on this one-sided crush, don't you think?

You aren't really handsome/cute/hot/sexy/sweet in the first place.

Now I sit here, thinking how I even fell for you.

I laugh.

I can't seem to find the time when this feeling sparked.

A song to fit with my mood now : Miss $ & Block B (remix) - Over

YEP. I like Block-B. tee hee. but b2st is still my favourite :>

You are my first crush. No, scratch that. You WERE my first crush.

And I really thank you for that.

But there is nothing much left for me to say.

It felt good while it lasted.

But now its over.

I'm glad.

That I'm over you.

The Troubles in Me

Sigh. Welcome to my life.

I know I haven't been updating much recently. I'm sorry :(

I just don't seem to have any inspiration left in me like what I had one or two years ago.

Main reason? Nothing much seems to be going on in my life recently.

BUT its not like I want anything to happen either coz it gets troublesome when it does...

ANYWAY the main troubles I'm facing right now is:

1) Exam is like TWO freaking weeks away and I'm not studying yet.

2) The muscles from my shoulders all the way to the base of my feet HURTS. Ouch.

3) I think I like someone. But I'm not really sure... and he isn't replying me.. or even talking to me at all.

4) I feel awkward around my dad lately.

5) I'm procrastinate too much.

Yeap. Yeah, that's it.

Haha just an update on my life.

I promise the next post will be much more interesting ^^

-love Rachel

Dreams Can Come True

I hate you.

I hate you for making me feel this way.

When I feel like I know I finally have the strength to push you away,

you talk to me, and suddenly I don't hate you anymore.

Suddenly, it feels like I'M the one who's in the wrong.

Then i take it back.

And its like i can never get mad at you when you're around.

But when you're gone, I get so mad I can't contain it.

I HAVE TO TELL SOMEONE. vent it out.

Then that someone that I tell will definitely tell someone else about it ( FOR SURE. I can assure you.)

Doesn't matter if she/he's my best friend. the news will still spread.

Then you find out about it.

Then I feel ashamed.

But I never tell anyone of this shame.

Then you still go on like nothing happened.

And somehow, that hurts me even more.

Why?

I HATE YOU.

You complicate my life.

Sigh. I wish I'd never fallen for you.

Pretend

I've decided.

I'm gonna pretend again.

And this time, its gonna last.

I'm not gonna change my mind.

So don't you dare try.

SIGH.

Now I have to choose between Sempurna and Wesley.

Seriously. Sempurna = Not-so-good school but I don't wanna leave my friends.

Wesley = Awesome 5 star school and if I manage to get in, I might even have a 50% discount on my college fees. (Wesley's College that is)

ISHH. Where should I go?

Should I stay? Should I go?

I need help! :(

Lost and Confused

Am I wrong?

To deny this feeling?

I keep telling myself that I don't like you.

that you're just a passerby. A stranger.

But in reality, I really I can't ignore you.

I lie to everyone around me that even when they catch me looking at you,

it means that I feel pissed at you or something, but I'M NOT.

... Evidence?

Hell yeah I got evidence.

I couldn't even tell every single one of my close buddies that I don't like you anymore.

Some of them still thinks I do.

Which, really, I still do.

BUT YEAH I DIDN'T TELL ALL OF THEM.

Sigh. What happens now? What should I do?

Should I continue acting like nothing's happened?

Should I continue denying this fact?

Should I speak up?

Should I tell you... the real reason why I ignore you?

I know you most probably don't like me. But my heart won't accept it.

And maybe that's why I'm ignoring you.

Because I wanna get rid of this feeling.

So that I won't have to go on liking you.

So that you won't ever have to find out that I did like you.

So I won't have to hear you say "I'm sorry. But.. I don't feel the same."

..... I don't know what to do.

OH YEAH BABY.

Yeah, the header picture has changed!!

And new header picture means new confidence!

New header picture means renewal of my spirit! :D

And now B2ST takes over!!

MY ONE AND ONLY FAV KOREAN BOY BAND.

Goodbye IU , hello B2st :)

Anyway. I'm so awesomely ready for life.

Come on babe. Shove anything at me with all you've got.

I'm not afraid.

I've my ONLY best friend with me 24/7.

What is there for me to be afraid of?

Dear life,

I dont even know if you're actually a maze,

or a game.

Or a puzzle to solve.

But one thing I can be sure of:

you're meant to be lived in.

And I don't want to live in disappointment or sadness.

I don't want to spend my life emo-ing.

I'm SO going out there.

And give everything my best shot.

I don't care if I fail.

I don't care because I know there's always a chance to get back up again.

Everyone have chances to redeem themselves as long as they live.

And I'm not gonna waste any time.

PMR. I might hate you,

but it doesn't mean I'm gonna fail on you.

I'm gonna PASS you,

with FLYING colours.

And you ain't got nothing to say about that <3

Oh, and also, good luck to anyone who reads this post.

To boys: exams, school, life, sports, attitude.

to girls: life, emotions, monthly moods,school, shopping, exams, AND your crushes.

Never give up.

EVER.