Strength

It is unstable. I know it.
I know somehow, that this will not last forever. It isn't eternal.
Yet I am putting too much trust and hope in this.. it doesn't make sense.
I shouldn't be too dependent on it or else..

When it is gone, then everything will be lost.

I can't bear that. I can't bear to feel that way again.
I don't want to.
I MUSN'T.

But my resolve is weakening and it is falling apart.
My walls are slowly being torn down.. the walls I have worked so hard to build up till today.
I don't know what's going to happen.

But I know one thing for sure.
And that is that I will trust in God.