Lost and Confused

Am I wrong?

To deny this feeling?

I keep telling myself that I don't like you.

that you're just a passerby. A stranger.

But in reality, I really I can't ignore you.

I lie to everyone around me that even when they catch me looking at you,

it means that I feel pissed at you or something, but I'M NOT.

... Evidence?

Hell yeah I got evidence.

I couldn't even tell every single one of my close buddies that I don't like you anymore.

Some of them still thinks I do.

Which, really, I still do.

BUT YEAH I DIDN'T TELL ALL OF THEM.

Sigh. What happens now? What should I do?

Should I continue acting like nothing's happened?

Should I continue denying this fact?

Should I speak up?

Should I tell you... the real reason why I ignore you?

I know you most probably don't like me. But my heart won't accept it.

And maybe that's why I'm ignoring you.

Because I wanna get rid of this feeling.

So that I won't have to go on liking you.

So that you won't ever have to find out that I did like you.

So I won't have to hear you say "I'm sorry. But.. I don't feel the same."

..... I don't know what to do.