A Life To Complete

Life is simple,

But our courage often dwindles,

Even when we are assured,

we can't help but be absurd.

Once in a while we have to look at the bigger picture,

to think freely, to feel secure.

Not everything will be exactly the way we want it to be,

that is why there are times we have to give up,

even when we're at the top.

Love is a riddle,

while life is a puzzle,

you solve and complete it,

because that's really just what its all about:

A life to complete.

Guard Your Heart

Girls, guard your heart! Don't fall for BOYS too easily.
The only thing they know to do is to break your heart ):
Love true males. MEN.

In the future.
They are worth so much more of your time and feelings.
don't was your time now.

TEEHEE.
I THINK IM GOING CRAZY.
YES. CRAZY WITH BOREDOM.

I really need to find something to do huh ._.

Its Not Easy But I'll Survive

As it is in friendship, so will it be in studies and family. And love.  (if I will ever have one that is.)
Its definitely hard to be successful in each and every one of them. No one said it was going to be easy.
But then, no one said it was going to be too hard either right?
And what's a dish without some salt?
What's life without falling? And getting back up again?

Actually I'm kind of tired of pre-judging things all the time. And tired of assuming, lying, pitying myself and faking every thing that I do.
I just want to be true. Not only to me but to others as well.
Its not like I want to be a good kid or whatever.
But I'm just really exhausted.
And I think its about time I turn over a new leaf.
For real.
Even if its difficult and close to impossible, I have to at least try.

I have to be a person of truth, honesty, dignity, kindness, hard work and love.
Although I can't say about the mistakes I will make,
I still have to start. And by starting, I mean by next year. I just really have to. I must.

I have to start before its too late. For my own sake. So I do not affect others around me too.
I want to bring about happiness, not sadness.
I have to smile truly, not in a lie.
I have to work hard to achieve my dreams, not sit around and do nothing.
I have to learn to love others properly, not avoiding people who I think are unnecessary in my life.

If I want to earn something I've always wanted but have never gotten before, I must work hard and do something I've never done before.
That is the way karma works. That's the way LIFE goes.
It just isn't fair for a lazy person to steal the prize, is it?

Even if I have to sacrifice some things, I will do it.

I will.

I'm Pretty Sure

I'm pretty sure everything will work out right. Well, at least for me.

It worked the same way for her. So it shouldn't be much different for you.

When I leave one day, I will want to remember everyone except you.

Its hard to accept this truth. But its even harder to accept the things you throw at me.

So I vow to never feel this way so easily again.

Goodbye. Forever.

OMG. My tickets to Perth have been confirmed! :D
I'm gonna meet my cousin there soon. She's really glad and I guess I am too.
After this year, everything's gonna be tough. Educationally. And I'll have to work harder and smarter to achieve my goals.

So for now, I have to enjoy. As much as possible.
I need to hang out.
Or maybe do things I'll get less time to do next year. And the year after that.
Work hard on my DDR skills (yes I'm getting better!)
exercise more, laugh more, get prettier and more than anything, have fun :)

You..

I don't know what I did to you. Any of you. I honestly don't.
Is it a sin to look the way I do? Is it also a sin that I naturally feel shy around others?
So.
Its my fault.
That I can't sing very well in front of a large crowd.
And that I TRY to look pretty to make up for it.
Is that so bad?
At least I tried.

I, on the other hand, have never insulted you so terribly before.
Sure, you might not believe me because you never really know when someone insults you behind your back
BUT do you really think I'm like that?
Do you think I'll deliberately backstab you? Even if I don't know you very well?

Well. Maybe that's how you think of me.
Maybe you think I'm a bitch. A slut. A playgirl. I'm LOA. I don't deserve the attention.
Then fine.
Then let me ask you a question:
Does every human being have a certain level of receiving attention and friends?
Does every person deserve to have more/less attention than others?

If you think 'yes' then you're effing wrong.
It just shows how much of a bitch, slut, and LOA person YOU are.
It shows the level of your mentality.
You might be 15. or 16.
But your brain is no better than a 10 year old.

Grow up.
Face reality.
Be rational, logical and fair.
Then maybe one day you might receive the treatment you deserve and always wanted so badly.

Hey!

Hey everyone :) Its been a while.
I've been busy trying out things I've wanted to do to feed my boredom.

And.. well, I tried this.. thing.
Its kind of like twitter... but 40% korean (since its an alternate co-site that was purposely translated to english for english users..)
And yes, its originally korean :)

I had nothing to do lol.
its called me2day. it has pretty tight privacy settings too.

I'm halfway through Playful Kiss.
Hehe. Wish you all had a fun day ^^
That's all for now.
Thanks for reading!

Looking Beyond Prejudice

It is hard to live without prejudging people based on my first impression of them.
I never wanted to. But it just comes so naturally.
And today I just realized one of the best things of being able to see the true colors of a person regardless of their looks, size, weight, height or hairstyle.

She WAS the other best friend of my WAS best friend.
And we used to have a silent war. Though none of us spoke, it was evident enough.
I used to hate her. A lot.
I'd always thought she's stuck up and the 'popular' type. Which I used to hate a lot.

Then we both grew up. And well my WAS best friend wasn't my best friend anymore.
I didn't want to bother or care anymore. It was just such a pain the neck.
Well, in short: I gave up on her.

And I started to look at the bigger picture of things.
I made new friends. New BETTER friends.
Found a new best friend that's worth so much more of my time,
with common interests and better understanding.

Then THAT best friend of my ex-best friend started to leave that 'popular' group as well.
She was.. kind of astray.
You know, like you don't know where you belong?
Yeah that feeling. It sucks.

So I don't know how but somehow things started to liven up a bit when I gave up on my ex-best friend.
We started at first by saying 'hi' and 'bye' to each other.
Then later we started little conversations,
then we started sitting together when she left the group,
and suddenly we're like CLOSE FRIENDS! :D

She's really nice, and talented, and cute, and funny and .. different. UNIQUE is a better word for it.
She can sing really well. She has nice hair. She can play guitar (which rocks!)
We both realized that how we used to silently fight with each other was really stupid and childish.
To think that it was for a silly girl who never appreciated our kindness and care.

I hope she'll succeed in the competition that's coming up soon. *winks winks*